Saturday, December 31, 2005


Another year is coming to it’s end , simply it has slipped away , gone for good, All that is left is just memories, The good times & the bad times , lessons learned & others forgotten, people you met ,some are friends others are foes, some you’ll see again while others u won’t
relations strengthened & others r gone.

Inquisitive people ,places & experiences, things you shouldn’t have done, situations you never dreamt of, decisions you’ve made, visions you’ve understood, some wisdom u have gained, mistakes you have made, people u have hurt, people u helped out, you knew just a little more about yourself , loved ones you have lost, dear ones you have missed.

The world is getting more & more difficult, wars here & there, political corruption , pollution every where, catastrophes so dreadful, some r getting poorer while others are getting richer .

What a wonderful life it is , it sometimes seems so terrible & sometimes so beautiful, such a controversy. So lets cherish the good moments, the experiences, our friends & our loved ones, Lets learn from the bad times & our mistakes. Lets try to enjoy it as it is having faith that we’ll someday somehow make it a better world for us all Farwell 2005 & welcome 2006 . Lets pray to God The Almighty for the best Of times always & a happy new year
Happy new year my friends

Friday, November 25, 2005

Just Another Day

Sitting on the floor
leaning by the wall
The radio is on
But your not really listening
It’s been a long boring day
You’ve been doing the same things
All over & over again
The warmth of the setting sun
A smooth breeze holding u
The sky so amazing so beautiful
A sight so beautiful
A sight u may see everyday
A friend comes along
Asking what are you doing
U simply say
I’m just sitting for a while
A soft tune starts to play
So soft so Sad
It makes you wanna cry
I’m sitting all alone
Missing u missing u all
My friends , my family
My life , I miss who I was
Wondering what’s next down the road
A lot of hopes
A lot of dreams
A lot of fears
A gush of different emotions
Whirling inside my chest
What’s good & what’s the best
A small bird glides slowly beside you
So small & full of life
So innocent so free
It slowly disappears
U think
It’s so nice to be free
To fly so high
& as long as you try
Nothing is too high
The sun is gone
But sure to come
A day will be born
After the silence of the night
Shining stars sparkling all over
Tiny glimpses of hope
Someday Somewhere
It’s time to sleep
To dream , To seek
For tomorrow
Is a brand new day

Sami yusuf

I listened to his new album it’s really interesting some songs r excellent others I may haven’t really liked but in total he is doing great some lyrics are really interesting these r 2 songs which I liked very much if u r interested you can visit


What goes through your mind?
As you sit there looking at me
Well I can tell from your looks
That you think I’m so oppressed
But I don’t need for you to liberate me

My head is not bare
And you can’t see my covered hair
So you sit there and you stare
And you judge me with your glare
You’re sure I’m in despair
But are you not aware
Under this scarf that I wear
I have feelings, and I do care

So don’t you see?
That I’m truly free
This piece of scarf on me
I wear so proudly
To preserve my dignity...

My modesty
My integrity
So don’t judge me
Open your eyes and see...
“Why can’t you just accept me?” she says
“Why can’t I just be me?” she says
Time and time again
You speak of democracy
Yet you rob me of my liberty
And all I want is equality
Why can’t you just let me be free?

For you I sing this song
My sister, may you always be strong
From you I’ve learnt so much
How you suffer so much
Yet you forgive those who laugh at you
You walk with no fear
Through the insults you hear
Your wish so sincere
That they’d understand you
But before you walk away
This time you turn and say:

But don’t you see?
That I’m truly free
This piece of scarf on me
I wear so proudly
To preserve my dignity
My modesty
My integrity
So let me be
She says with a smile
I’m the one who’s free


Blessed is your face
Blessed is your name
My beloved
Blessed is your smile
Which makes my soul want to fly
My beloved
All the nights
And all the times
That you cared for me
But I never realised it
And now it’s too late
Forgive me

Now I’m alone filled with so much shame
For all the years I caused you pain
If only I could sleep in your arms again
Mother I’m lost without you

You were the sun that brightened my day
Now who’s going to wipe my tears away
If only I knew what I know today
Mother I’m lost without you

Mother... Mother... O my mother
How I long to see O mother
“Your mother, Your mother, Your mother”
Is the saying of your Prophet
In my heart, in my dreams
You are always with me mother

You went and left me
O light of my eyes
O comfort of my nights
You went and left me
Who, other than you, will embrace me?
Who, other than you, will cover me?
Who, other than you, will guard over me?
Your pardon mother, forgive me

Saturday, November 19, 2005

Change Your Mind

"Change Your Mind"

Hey, HeyDid you ever think
There might be another way
To just feel better,
Just feel better about today

Oh no-
If you never want to have
To turn and go away
You might feel better,
Might feel better if you stay

Yeah yeah
I bet you haven't heard A word I've said
Yeah yeah
If you've had enough Of all your tryin'
Just give up
The state of mind you're in:

If you want to be somebody else,
If you're tired of fighting battles with yourself
If you want to be somebody else
Change your mind...

Hey hey-
Have you ever danced in the rain
Or thanked the sun Just for shining-
just for shining
Or the sea?

Oh no-
take it all in
The world's a show
And yeah,
you look much better,
Look much better when you glow

Hey hey-
what ya say
We both go and seize the day'
cause what's your hurry
what's your hurry anyway

a song from ost of bedazzeled
so simple but true
no comment .

Friday, November 11, 2005

Saturday, November 05, 2005

True Love

I never knew love could be a silence in the heart,
A moment when the time is still,
And all I've been looking for is right here in my arms,
Just waiting for the chance to begin,
I never knew love could be the sunlight in your eyes,
On a day that you may not have seen,
And all I've been searching for,
well words could never say,
When a touch is more than anything;
Maybe you will never know how much I love you,
You are my lover,
you are my friend,
You are my life to the very end,
You bring me comfort,
you keep me warm,
You give me hope,
you make me strong,
You take me away to a distant shore,
And it's with you that I want to stay,
I never knew that love would be a miracle,
I never knew that love would be so beautiful to me
I'm standing here tonight,
thinking of the time we'll have,
I never knew that you would be so beautiful,
From the day you came into my life,
I just want to say, you make me happy,
I never knew that you would be so beautiful to me
Tonight it is very clear
There is so many things, I want to say
Ill always love you
I would never leave u alone
Sometimes I just forget
Say things I might regret
& I’ve been missing u
I’ll be the answer in the end of the line
I’ll be there for u while you take ur time
It will be worth it in the end
Cause I can only tell you what I know
I need you in my life
U promised me things & other u couldn’t
Well I can only promise u I’ll do my best
U may never know how much I love u
Feel me, Understand me, withstand me
Yet u may never know how much I love u
I’m not great & I may not be your dream
All I can give you is only me
Words may be uncertain but all I can say

" I Love You"
inspired from chris de burgs' love collection
For the one who'll share my dreams

Now is the time

Time flows by spontaneously unnoticed but there is a point when it reminds us to learn from the past , look towards the future, see life as a line extending between 2 points a start & an end, a time when we should look deep beyond z surface to realize the mere truth of our existence ,foresee life then it's extension as afterlife .this is the time my friends .

Friday, November 04, 2005

Thanks God

There comes a time when u must really look at the big picture . We take a lot of things for granted not being aware that is a Gift from God except when it’s gone ………………..
Things so simple but when they are gone it’s not simple at all , for instance water you find it so easy so cheap but imagine it’s gone ; a disaster may merely describe the situation . An other example imagine you’ve got some foot ache i.e.: pain in your foot specially when u walk imagine how dreadful it would be that every single step causes u a lot of pain .
God has granted each of us a million of gifts or even more some we may know & most we don’t.

Thanks God for being the most merciful
for being so patient on me
for my parents who took care of me
for my Family whom you granted me
for my friends who stand beside me
for the one whom gonna share my dreams
Thanks God for the little knowledge I have
for the minor strength you gave
for giving although I have nothing to give back
for giving me hope when it’s so dark
for showing me the way when I am lost
for giving me a chance when I mistake
Thanks God for showing me how weak I am
for giving me Islam & faith
for every gift you granted me
for who I am for who I’ll be
for making me understand what I can
for making me appreciate what I can’t
Thanks God for making me thank you
For everything toooooooo

God grant me serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to distinguish the one from the other .

to loose someone

It’s a really tough experience to lose someone u love, someone near, someone who means a lot 2 u but this is life. When u come to think about it u may think of death but u may also loose him to life.
U may loose a friend or a fiancé or any other dear person to life ,you may disagree. you may go separate ways & unfortunately it may be a one way street. It really hurts a lot but when u try to remember the good times, the splendid experience & how when u really needed support, They gave u more than u needed. The pain & the bitterness gradually fades away & all you've got left is a
splendid memory, a memory that may make u happy when you are sad .

The same thing may happen when u loose someone to death, we feel so sad & very weak ,we miss those who are gone very very much ,we wish we could say things that must have been said & do things that must have been done &
we are afraid of what’s beyond

Take a moment & think about it , look to the other side of death, what is death ? its being transferred from the mortal life to another life, its a gate to what lies beyond.

I read it once & still remember it, A day of Gods days is 10000 yrs of ours, so if an average human lives 70 yrs it makes about nothing from Gods time ; a few seconds no more. So life is just a glance, like a test u either succeed or fail.
that’s really what life is........ a test; simply a test ; a really tricky test

We all feel sad for missing people we love but we shouldn't hate death because its only a means to the other side. We must know that those who died don’t leave us but they are still here through us ,through their memories in our hearts through what they taught us through what we learned from them ; their continuation is through our life & What we'll teach our sons & what our sons will teach their sons & so on. Not only is it related to relatives or friends , a total stranger can give u a glance, a push that may really make a big difference through out your life
so let us all pray for all of our loved ones whom we miss very much & cherish very much may God bless them & Guide us to the right pass ,yes we are living in hard times, so be it . lets make the best out of it.

Monday, September 12, 2005

I dont Know why

Do u sometimes get the feeling u don't know why u r existing why do u go to work ? why do u do anything , a sensation oof indifference , nothing really matters any more .thats what I' m feeling these days .There is something missing I don't know what All i feel That I want to let it out so i just wrote it down

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

This will never happen to me

Life is really strange, sometimes u feel u got it in ur hands & other times u feel u dont have nothing at all,u feel sometimes u r the center of the universe other times u feel u r nothing . if u sit for a while & watch people going by u'll be amazed those who look sad those who look exhausted those who look like nothing matters to them everybody consumed by his mere existance thinking that life is steady "this will never happen to me " when it happens we get flipped of our legs the rule is everything & anything can happen to anyone at anytime there is nothing such as it will never happen because something wil happen eventually

Wednesday, July 06, 2005


Living just by facts is really hard , imagination gives life a touch of beauty, Imagination is a great bless, isn’t it ? A gift granted from God to all the human race. We can imagine that we are any person we want, anywhere we want, with anyone we want .We can imagine a beautiful sight, a marvelous invention, a solution to a problem just anything is possible in the world of imagination but those who can create their imaginations into reality are those who count. They can really make a great difference.

Tuesday, July 05, 2005

life "part 6" friendship"

Apparently Friendship is a very common relationship but when you look deep you’ll realize that true friendship isn’t that common . we tend to mix things up to some extent ,some of us mix friendship with other types of relations, being colleges, relatives ,neighbors or merely we enjoying each others company doesn’t necessarily means that we are friends .so when you say that this person is your friend what comes to your mind ?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

Fate & coincidence

Fate is the invisible track we move in through out our lives, As it is invisible we don’t see it but we move along thinking we are in control as long as we understand the how & why according to our limited insight .when something we don’t understand happens we get puzzled asking our selves why & how? ,even we may feel angry, frustrated & depressed “why me ?” one thing is for sure there is no such thing as coincidence , it’s only a trial of self deceive .It is always fate, have Faith & believe in fate & destiny ,everything happens for a reason even though we might not understand it in the time being or even never will .but be sure there is a very good reason , For God is always there for us. Me writing this you reading it ,we being friends everything happens for a reason .

Life “part five”

One of the unique relations is the parent child relationship. This relation is so vital & God has honored this relationship very highly .Your parents give without waiting to take, will give u all they can ,will always love you no matter who you are , they’ll do the impossible for your sake .shockingly this relationship has been corrupted . we are happy as long as we take but when we don’t get what we want we start ………….,Parents have turned to be giving machines to some people & when they don’t need them they become a burden !!!!!!!!!
& of course what goes around comes around ,
so let us all try to cherish our parents our families . Try to payback just a little of what they gave us & most important give them the respect they deserve & the love they’ve earned .

forget & to forgive

There is a big difference between to forget & to forgive ;
To forget is like covering up a memory or burying it deep but simply a small incidence may uncover & release all the pain & bitterness ,you may live the whole incidence again
To forgive is to be able to let go ,to accept ,to be frank with thy self but with out forgetting ,u remember it but u accept & live with it & gradually it fades away & no matter what happens all the pain & bitterness disappears maybe even replaced by understanding & a sense of self acceptance & inner peace .so Always try to forgive before you try to forget for your own sake not for anyone else .


Today I was playing around in my comp files when I came a long a simple program I’ve forgotten all about ,it is a very simple program ;entering your birth date & it gives you your age in years months, days, hours, minutes & seconds .so I just did & wooow …………I was amazed all theses years have gone ,a lot of time really a lot, a life time, some people didn’t live to reach this age . Its amazing how time passes ,I feel it was just a week ago when I was playing as a child & it feels it was yesterday when I was hanging out with my friends in my school yrs .my college years seems as if they don’t exist at all. The effort, the exhaustion even the pain doesn’t exist . all theses years minimized to a small fraction
I started thinking I’ve always thought of myself as still young but should I reconsider this fact, noticing the fact I don’t know how much I have left , the clock is ticking just imagine it; a clock ticking beside you & each tick means you’ve got one second less to live ,it’s thee final countdown .Time flows by spontaneously unnoticed but we must have in mind that we should always remember to learn from the past , look towards the future, see life as a line extending between 2 points a start & an end, we should look deep beyond z surface to realize the mere truth of our existence ,foresee life then it's extension as afterlife .& the most important fact;
time is your most unique & valuable capital, so don’t waste it in trivialities & invest it well !!!!!!

Thursday, June 09, 2005

Who Am I ?

A difficult question to answer because I’m not really not sure well I’m an ordinary guy just starting my practical life with a lot of expectations & hopes .
I’m not an artist & I’m not talented & I’m not wise enough I’m a normal human being ,was born someday & going to die someday. life is too short & it is frustrating ,but I live it enjoying the beautiful moments & try to never give up when it is really dark . trying to love as much as I can & hate as less as I can . I may be Lonely although I’m not alone .
I’ve always been wondering what really lies beyond ,am I good enough to face it ,what are my limits whether I’m a talker or a doer ,am I walking in the right path or in the wrong one , am I a good friend or an unworthy one , I really wonder who am I ?

Life “part four”

Relations, relations ,why are they important? if u think of it & you have imagination you will notice we are all connected someway or the other in a network of relations like a sphere each of us is surrounded with a sphere with us in the center with other spheres dissecting it at different levels whether vertical or horizontal or may be just tangent or not even touching each other .theses spheres are always in a continuous state of change whether in size, direction or speed we may be moving parallel to each other or towards or away from each other some spheres are so solid while others are too fragile that a minor collision may throw it out of its way towards nowhere ,the more close we are & the more the number of spheres that are connected together the solider we are & vice versa the less the number & the furthest the distance the weaker we are just as we learnt in physics about the solid, fluid & gaseous states of matter. The quote “together we stand , divided we fall” really applies here.

Life “part three”

Who is my soul mate? An everlasting question we all are seeking our soul mates & if we found them we will ask ourselves is he really my soul mate ? a real controversy from the beginning of time ,some try seeking them by star signs saying that a *** and a ***** can get along but a *** & a **** can’t .some are seeking the looks others are seeking the attitude while others are seeking the mind but nobody is sure about it a lot of mismatching & sometime it works. some have been waiting all their lives while others settle down for what they find. A real dilemma, specially that a lot of factors play a role; financial, our cultural backgrounds, the presumed social levels ! , our families, our friends & a lot more one fact should be stated just as a guide line there is never never a perfect soul mate there are always defects & that’s where love gets in to fill in the gaps to melt the two souls in one mould . I wonder if love mentioned in these quotes exists

-Love is not gazing at each other but looking together in the same direction.

-The love we give away is the only love we keep

-A house is made of walls & beams ; a home is built with love & dreams

-To give & not count the cost-this is what love is all about

-Let us not love in word but in deed and in truth

-Marriage does not fail ;people fail. All that marriage does is show people up

-The best proof of love is trust

-To love someone means to see him as God intended him .

-Stop looking for love; start being lovable

-Marriage endures when married couples love many things together, not merely each other.

-Love keeps no record of wrongs.

-Choose your love, and then love your choice.

-Respect is appreciation of the separateness of the other person, of the ways in which your spouse is unique.

-Brides and pregnant ladies are often radiantly beautiful, and happiness, not cosmetics is the cause.

-Anyone can love a rose, but it takes a great heart to love a leaf,

-One word frees us of all the weight and pain of life: that word is 'love'.

-Marriage is loving-together, not just living together.

-In marriage, love must be there, but friendship refines love into a vital partnership, and that's what makes a good marriage great

-Most important rule of marriage: toward both your spouse and yourself, behave only in ways that enhance your self-worth, dignity and integrity

-You don't love your wife for what she says but love what she says because you love her.

-Never allow moments of inconsiderateness overwhelm a lifetime of consideration.

-The successful marriage is not one in which there are no fights, but one in which fights are turned into opportunities for greater honesty and understanding

-Chains do not hold a marriage together ,It is threads, hundreds of tiny threads, which sew people together through the years

-You don't marry one person; you marry three - the person you think they are, the person they are, and the person they are going to be as the result of being married to you.

-There's no way to win against your spouse, You both win or you both lose

-Happy couples make as many mistakes as unhappy couples. The difference is that happy couples admit them, laugh at them and learn from them. That is how they become happy couples.

-In marriage relations,” Maybe you 're right" is as powerful as the famous "I love you."

-A successful marriage requires falling in love many times with the same person .

-love isn’t measured by how many times you touch each other but how many times you reach each other .

-As we abandon our attempts to change our mate and instead focus on ourselves , changes surprisingly and predictably occur in the marriage .

-No couple is a perfect fit . So learn to respect differences & overlook rough spots .Recognize that your differences are not due to bad faith or lack of respect or interest .

-In every marriage more than a month old there are grounds for divorce . The trick is to find grounds for marriage .

-The successful marriage is not one in which there are no fights , but one in which fights are turned into opportunities for greater honesty and understanding .

-Once couples realize that they can’t be married and always be right , the rest is easy .

-We’re all fundamentally alone in this life, but friendship enriches marriage by causing us to feel accepted, understood & loved.

-Loving someone doesn't mean your goals are always identical. But if you want something, your mate wants it for you too.

-When spouses don t tell each other how they feel, it is as if there is an elephant in the room that never gets talked about.

-Marriage endures when married couples love many things together, not merely each other.

-A good marriage is like a good investment fund. You put everything you have into it during your productive life, and over the years it turns from silver to gold to platinum.

-Love is found by those who can live with human nature as it is. When you walk on the beach to watch the sunset you do not call out, "A little S more orange, please."

-The secret of being loved, and the secret of being lovely, is being unselfish .

-Being married doesn’t mean you’re glued to each other . One of the wonderful things about love is that it binds without crippling .

-Don’t critize your wife’s judgment ; See whom she married !

-love is not destroyed by a single failure , or won by a single caress. It is a lifetime venture in which we are always learning, discovering and growing.

-let there be spaces in your togetherness .

-be courteous, not only to strangers and guests, but also to your spouse .

-For a good married life, remain near enough to keep each other warm and far enough apart-about a finger’s breadth- for breathing room .

-A marriage can easily rust from distrust .

-Do not expect your mat to change. Put yourself in his or her shoes. Would you want to be overhauled or expect your mate to love you as you are?

-To love someone is to be the only one to see a miracle invisible to others .
-Do not think everything is o.k. with your marriage . ity is either getting better or going down. Remain alert.

-If two people let a single instanct wedge itself between them , it grows into a month, a year and, it becomes too late.

-Variety is the spice of life, but it is better to have one spicy wife.

-Treasure each other in the recognition that you do not know how long you shall have each other .

-If you have love in your heart ,you will always have something to give .

-A good marriage is like the tide. No matter how long it is out , you know it will come back to you.

-Marriage is not the cause of divorce. It is forgetting what marriage means that cause divorce .

-Silence ,secretiveness and sudden outbursts may be signs of decaying relationship.

-Love doesn’t make the world go around but it makes the ride worthwhile .

-Happy couples make many mistakes as unhappy couples. The difference is that happy couples admit them, laugh at them and learn from them. That is how they become happy couples .

-When love and skill work together expect a master piece .

Life “part two”

So life is about relationships , & relationships are about connections which goes both way . one of the most important relationships is your relationship with God .Did u ever think about this relationship?, Is it existing ? Is it good or bad ? do u feel connected some people say they are believers but they only say it they do not feel it, have you ever felt like God is watching you ? Did you stop doing something wrong because you remembered that God is watching you ? Did you really feel that God cares about you ?Do you really love God more than everything even yourself ? Do you really feel it in your heart ? Have you ever cried for something you said or done then you realized that it was wrong ? questions & much more you must think about it & answer it frankly . we all feel lonely sometimes but if we are really connected we never will . Dr Mustafa Mahmoud in one of his books talked about this connection stating that it is the love as pure as it can be, the love to where we belong, to the beginning , the yearning of the soul to its creator .

Your relationship with yourself is a very critical one . It is a very complex relationship because it needs fine balance . a personality consists of a lot of needs, a lot of restrictions, a lot of dreams, a lot of fears, a lot of beliefs, desire, rage, faith & love all mingled together in different ratios that differ from person to person & from time to time always liable to change as a person moves along in the stream of life , a very unique equation which makes each one of us unique ,what really counts is our ability to keep z balance & adapt to the changes that surround us ex; we need to love ourselves but not too much to z extent of selfishness & not too little to z extent of low self esteem, without being frank to ourselves, about who we really are ; we wont find our inner peace, to know what we really want ? what we can really do? what do we want in life ? Be connected to yourself , as blueberry said “live life to learn about yourself” to know thy self.

Life “part one”

I’ve been thinking about life; it is really strange, if u stand back & watch you’ll be amazed how things are happening, how some people are living in such fatal trivialities will others are really so gloomy taking more burden than they can carry ,others are living it day by day no plans just going along the stream while others are actually are really doers, they plan ahead, they take decisions, state their opinions, really making a difference & others & other. some people tend to live alone while others want to live in groups when u ask someone what does he want from life he usually mentions items like; a good job , a good house , a suitable husband or wife , a lot of money , being famous .
Rarely you may hear things like living happily , being in good health, going to heaven freeing the occupied lands , be from those who’ll bring back the long lost glory of our Islamic nation & so on .
A third group of people may answer; a good meal a good night sleep or even they may say nothing at all .
The first group of answers are materialistic & short termed .The second group of answers tend to be more long termed & idealistic .The third group of answers are either from satisfaction or indifference , but in my opinion life is all about relationships; your relationship with
God The Almighty , your relationship with yourself , your relationship with your family, friends, spouse, colleges & any other people you may meet in your life its is the true key to everything “relationships”